are you there?

2008-12-15T00:55:00.000-08:00

can i have one more chance?
i will prove to you,

2008-12-14T23:59:00.000-08:00

rain rain rain,
feeling very cold, no appetite. guess i gonna fall sick anytime.

he say we were not suitable, but if we are not suitable,how are we gonna be together for so long?
i wanted to change, but you refuse to see me change.
insisting that i wont.i couldnt even show yet.(is really pms , cause i could not think of any reason why i acted that way,even im angry i wont walk out,but you refuse to believe me)
i must not tear but they are falling itself.
anyone tell me what shld i do?

i wanna celebrate your birthday with you!!!

2008-12-14T20:30:00.001-08:00

impossible

2008-12-14T20:03:00.000-08:00

what i want
1)love,im afraid of lonely so i cannot led my life without you
2)loyalty,with you not talking to other girls
3)without tears
4)without broken heart
5)care,with you taking great care
6)i hate you saying dont love me, is hurting when is not true
7)i hate it when things has to be fake infront of you
8)i hate the words that you use to hurt me
9)i hate you to see you with other girl
10)i hate you for not celebrating your birthday without me

2008-12-14T20:02:00.000-08:00

i'm equally hurt, but you only thing of your own feeling

2008-12-14T08:51:00.000-08:00

i afraid you will walk out of me,
i afraid to see you with other girl,
i afraid the lights were off without you,

thats why

i throw my temper
i give you attitude
i shout at you

all this shows i love you, but you receive the wrong msg.

you hurt me by saying letting me go.
you hurt me for not celebrating your birthday with me.
you hurt me when you say you dont love me

i dont wanna lose hope

2008-09-25T02:19:00.000-07:00

i promise i wont quarrel with you anymore
please come home safetly

2008-09-25T02:15:00.000-07:00

where are you?
why didnt you call me?
im so worried so lost
im so helpless. can you just let me know??

im missing you.
i can hardly breath ,i need you here with me.

2008-09-14T03:02:00.000-07:00

at least people bf have something for their gf.
i tot everything was fine alr.
in the end ,still the same.

2008-09-08T07:37:00.000-07:00

i'm losing grip.
but you never care. all you think is yourself.
all i can do is only give in give in and give in.
ever think of my feeling??i know for sure ,we will quarrel again.
i dont know what to do,you never listen.
you say we were unstable, but did you ever do anything to make it the stable you want?? the answer is no
cause you never care.

2008-09-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

someone once told me,
she said"so what i'm pretty, no one loves"

2008-08-16T07:56:00.000-07:00

this song is for baby:)
is something that i want you to know,read the lyrics ba:)

虽然是简单的形容
虽然是重复的动作
因为有你
让一切都变成不平凡

好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵住放不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福

Ti amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你沉入梦境
一张眼一清醒
第一个想到又是你

Sa la he And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你
少一天就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎

炎亚纶&刘力扬 - TiAmo

好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵住放不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福

Ti amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你沉入梦境
一张眼一清醒
第一个想到又是你

Sa la he And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你
少一天就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
永远都觉

2008-08-11T07:12:00.000-07:00

i dont understand? why are guys so difficult to understand.
what the hell is wrong with them?

im only asking, yet give me such attitude.
i tried so hard to ask my friend yet still tell me you dont wanna go.

what the hell, if i have known earlier i wont even help you ask.

2008-08-06T05:17:00.000-07:00

It's been long since i wanna blog this, but i give it up,i thought things would change but didnt.

i wanna move towards yet being push away from you again and again.
if that's the way you are,then why do i still hope the good ones will come back?
what is your definition of attitude?
i couldnt understand,you can give attitude yet i cant.

why would i call you in the middle of night? cause he text me something.
why would i ask you to come down find me, is because he look me up and was tearing..
i need you, but you are always pushing me away,scolding me.
what should i do,at least you will be there when i need

they said, 1 can rush immediately ,when hearing upon you saddening,
yet the other one will only scream and shout at you even when you are sad.

they said is better to be loved than loving someone,

2008-07-20T08:42:00.000-07:00

My day just sux today-.-
sales was like shit.
quarrel.

damn

i feel so unimportant to you after your return.
so what if he ask me out? when nothing is gonna change?

your are so mean,your attitude just sux.
guess what, i rather you are not back,at least i have a prefect picture of you.
i miss that
.rmb ytd when you came back the msg i send you
anyway they were true words,
but i'm feeling regret for sending this kind of msg.
any idea what should i do?
i no longer feel the importance in you.

did you ever remember the song by jenson 'i miss you' the song you describe for me???
(i doubt you remember)
i miss the days that we were so good,

not coming,cause afraid aunty angry
(i think you were just playing maple-.-)

2008-07-15T22:36:00.000-07:00

with the stupid labbie, damn shit

just wasted my off day, shouldnt have told winnie,
should have just went to work.

you , labbie, and sleep that's all.
you said change after that incident,then what about you?
changes the most-.-

you only care about urself .fine, donnt give a damn.
whether with pr, not my prob
with job also not my prob.

damn shit

2008-07-15T07:16:00.000-07:00

quarrel quarrel quarrel,
so tired T_T.

spell my name wrong?what was that?
is it some one else?
what is happening?

went out with farah and eeling,
saw lots of good stuff,wanna buy,
but no money.sob sob,gotta work hard to earn.
have yet to study.ROAR

2008-06-24T03:05:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since i had updated my post.
Got another job at skinfood.

so so broke, can't even afford to go anywhere.
miss faraah and the rest alot, but my off days always seems to clash with them,
haixxxxxxxxxxxxx.

people i used to know,seems to be a hypocrite then what i know.

o level approaching ,and i have yet to do any revision.damn it
got to buck up.who's gonna help me??????????

2008-06-08T07:46:00.000-07:00

i need to find new job, damn shit.
i don't think i'm suitable to be in F n B line ba,
so tiring T_T. went out at 9, reach home nearly 12.
beside working hour too long, there is also someone i hated most.
(don't feel like describing him,cause is just wasting my time, but he is just an ass)

nothing to do,cause too many staff around,then get scolding from people-.-
as if is my fault to have too many staff-.-
italian speaking english, i can never understand(people can try listening,if will ever understand-.-)
yet still i have to remember everything that he had say.
now i still can remember
cova started in milano,
name after an army guy
there;'s a theater beside the cafe which brings crowd
but the place was bomb after wwII
but was rebuilt later and popular also
over 100 years of cafe
popular in their coffee

ridiculous,im actually doing this-.-
i can't stand it anymore

2008-06-08T07:12:00.000-07:00

no point "copy' people, just for the sick of doing that.
there isn't any sincerity.

people say things will never last, i don't believe yet afraid.

i have no idea how much i meant to you.

shi shui - rui en

2008-06-03T06:31:00.000-07:00

photos of sentosa are ready^^

2008-06-03T06:21:00.000-07:00

3 more hours to my birthday,and yet i wasn't elated.
you were sick, i promised to cook porridge for you, i admit and i apologized.
i wasn't feeling well too.

2008-05-31T06:56:00.000-07:00

yeah,when sentosa today^-^
waiting so elated for the whole day,
but the weather just shit, cloudy ,worse thing i was trap in the jb jam-.- causing them to wait for me.
reaching harbour front around 10plus, still cloudy no sun-.-
only when we were about to leave the sun came out-.-
thank god we still able to tan abit.
sentosa is really a place that doesn't rain very often.lol

dar was buried in sand thanks to us.haha,we made him some rated .hahawe ha so much fun

2008-05-29T04:55:00.000-07:00

wth,
just not my day today,
shuffle spoilt, only used for 3 days
and now you telling me my birthday can't accompany me.
fine.
so be it
damn shit

2008-05-29T04:18:00.000-07:00

pork sleeping on my bed, thanks to him,i can't sleep

look so ugly with cap, yet he still force me

2008-05-19T22:49:00.000-07:00

which hypocrite ever told me that outsider can not be trust,only closest can be trust?
trust has never exist in this world, everyone tells lies.
i should never have trust anyone. having the same problem over and over again.

since you say i let out your 'secret' then why did you lied to me the 'secret' that you have? all you did were only to protect his dignity.so why did everyone trust him like as if his the ever nice guy ever, ya im very jealous of you, cause whatever you did,whatever you had ,him , had never been criticizes. on the other hand i get criticizes in whatever i did. you said you are jealous about me,since im pretty why should i ever care about others crap? this is the crap that you are ever thinking, you never understand my feeling cause you had never been through.
but thanks for apologizing to me, i truly appreciate that. i will learn to grow stronger than ever for all the things you have ever did, all this while you were pretending so much for my happy ending. i've got this song for you.

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Caught up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending ...
So much for my happy ending ..
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
[ http://www.rare-lyrics.com ]

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the sh*t that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be...

[Chorus]

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were doomed
[Chorus x2]

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh ohh ohhhhhh...

***
i know you are worried about my study, all your sister were pressing you as if you cant control us.im sorry for the things i have done. i will study hard for my own future not for them to see.how i wish i was kebbie cause he retake her Os too,yet nobody ever criticizes her.and hey, relationship is just having a person to rely on, is not as if i had ever forget my life because of relationship. i wont do foolish things. can i not go up on sunday anymore, i had enough of everything,i wanna led my own life not people criticizing and facing hypocrites. and i realize that because of the gossip around your sister, all the next generation had becomes hypocrites. don't believe?we shall see!

2008-05-18T23:56:00.000-07:00

me and boyboy went to wildwildwet

eating swensen ice-cream

swensen golden-rush(i think so)

reflection

crayfish pasta, blackpeppr pasta and grilled fish

eating ice cream at bugis

rings rings^-^(so long le then take-.-

act cute

tounge

2008-05-13T06:28:00.000-07:00

I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.
I DEEPLY LOVE YUAN YUAN, NOT CK.

2008-05-04T06:41:00.000-07:00

因为太帕失去你，所以连快乐里都冲满伤悲

life's no longer lonely,with you around

waiting for forever, with you by myside

sweet nehx, drinking sea monkey together

haha, force him to drink mushroom soup, stupid face

2008-05-04T06:37:00.000-07:00

my handsome boyboy

nobbie

5 month had just past, times really flies when with you.im waiting for forever

so cute neh

2008-05-04T06:34:00.000-07:00

cutie boy

zi lian neh!!

xie zhen ji

this fake naill cost 60 bucks,

2008-04-28T04:06:00.000-07:00

A girl hug him , kiss him on his cheek and put her head on his shoulder.They seems happy. He say is her gan jie(god sis), she ask is there a need for kiss? he knew that just holding gan jie's hand, she will go insane, yet he let her to kiss him...
he no longer call her laopo or darling anymore, and she feels that he no longer likes her the way he is in the past, he no longer sms or even call her, unless she did it first. he contact his ex as well, and ask her where is the couple ring that he used to have with his ex? she tried to search the cabinet for him, but he say no need, i had already search the whole room.he still cares about his ex.

her name is no longer laopo in his phone.

she saw 'her 'blog, picture with 'her' dog in his bf house. her bf claims that he wanna buy the dog for she, since' her 'is selling, so contact 'her'. she saw his inbox, "darling, when will you be back?" by 'her'. she ask him, he dint admit and delete the msg when she already saw it. After long of confrontation, he admit. he claim that 'her' like him, so call him darling. but he already ask 'her' not to call him that.'her' knows he has a gf, yet still call him darling. she went to ask his sister, , 'her ' went to their house before,his sister told her not to tell her kor kor. his sister tell she not to ask hos brother as her brother had warn her not to.

**she and 'her' are different character.

2008-04-26T01:15:00.000-07:00

alan kor kor, dui bu qi, destroy your lunch, please forgive me

2008-04-26T01:09:00.000-07:00

i admit i'm afraid if you are going with them,what if things went wrong?
but i can't possibly keep you inside forever if we gonna be together forever. with this, we will never last. i want you to go with them, so that you have your own space, own freedom. i hope to hear something nice from you, to have a piece in mind.
so what if you still like her, even if i were to keep you forever, your heart is still with her, it's pointless. if were to end, it will end, no point holding on.

thanks for the msg, i know my temper were really bad these few days. hope you will forgive me.

2008-04-24T01:48:00.000-07:00

OMG, jason going ns tomorrow. So fast, i thought won't be so soon.haix. if not zheng hao tell me, i doubt i also don't know. so many days dint contact them, so many things had happen. don't know how eeling feels when jason go ns, hope the both of them can get through this together.

I'm always thinking, should i just stop everything, since god has already oppose to me, maybe i can stop her from getting those hurt that i had. if i could, i had already help her. i'm suppose to know all this are lies, yet still falling deeper.

2008-04-20T05:34:00.000-07:00

why things always doesnt works?
why cant you just tell me was it so hard or were you just hiding something?
{hypocrite}

i thought that things will change for me, but it didnt.
i'm still back to my old self. then why am i putting such big effort to change, when it didnt at all?
i'm still quarreling, still many misunderstanding, still many hurting words, still many hurting question.
i tried to stop all this question , just as long you tell me the truth, but there you are lying.

el say her attitude her character was as if a shadow of me, she feel as it was being with me, {just look totally different, which she is so much taller-.-}so what is she trying to imply? he still love me? which doesnt even show a single bit of loyalty to her?are my things bugging him? or he just wanna bug himself with my things?

guys are all the same

2008-04-15T05:33:00.000-07:00

-yet to update-

2008-04-11T18:44:00.000-07:00

my 100 day, 100 roses;)

me and you

stupid guy, make me cry the whole dayT_T

of course i will love you more

the porridge that he specially cook for me, heard was the first time that he was cooking, very touched^.^

lastly the cake^.^ taste so nice, the chocolate was so nice, it was from chocz, a place that i always wish to buy a chocolate and eat a sq 2, can't believe that he actually bought for me^.^so sweet

the warmth of love^.^

2008-04-11T18:41:00.000-07:00

mister yuan choon kiat....

spoilt my day, ROAR.

then appear in my room. -.-

make me cry the whole day;(

i will try to forgive you, since so much things have been plan;)

2008-04-10T02:46:00.000-07:00

so wired, my hairT_T

love the dress^-^

i don't know how long you can love me, but as for now, i'm really happy for your accompany, i really hope all this are not lies

me and bei @ arena for dnd

2008-04-09T22:25:00.001-07:00

so bored....Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

no idea what to buy for baobei, for our 100 day. sobosb, stress.....

ytd was so boring, flood baobei friendster comment.AHha..

2008-04-06T19:40:00.000-07:00

白色的风筝安静的纯真
真实的感觉梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头
我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福
梦希望没有祝福
但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭
我陪你走到最后
能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我
说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么
反正不会松手
我陪你走到最后
能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手
晚一点才到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远
...

2008-04-06T19:38:00.000-07:00

虽然经常梦见你
还是毫无头绪
外面正在下着雨
今天是星期几
but i don`t know
你去那里
虽然不曾怀疑你
还是忐忑不定
谁是你的那个唯一
原谅我怀疑自己
我明白
我要的爱
会把我宠坏spoilt me>
像一个小孩
只懂在你怀里坏
你要的爱
不只是依赖
要像个大男孩
风吹又日晒
生活自由自在

2008-04-06T09:55:00.001-07:00

baobei, thanks for always been there to calm me down, when i need you there, when mind drifted, thanks for having the patient, thanks lotx lotx. love you lotx lotx.i like it when you say you afraid me going out with him, this shows i stand a huge place inside your heart, finally i get to hear that from you, iim so happy, thinking of that still makes me grin from ear to ear. next time must make you tear for me.wahaha, to show that you love me deeply.lol

2008-04-06T09:20:00.000-07:00

who the hell you think you are? just because i need your daughter to help me cope with my studies doesnt mean you can say such things about me, just because i'm prettier than any of your daughter? my bf is always much more handsome then your daughter bf? hello, im not a vase that you guys always said,if im really a vase, then i wont even care about studies,just find someone rich and married,dummy. you guys are just someone who is blood related with me,you have no right to say such things about me, im not your daughter so stop saying those stupid stuff to my mum and please stop thinking as if you can change my life with just your words.if im not interested then i wont ask your daughter to tutor me, dont forget your daughter was also once those retaking o. so you guys dont have the right to look down on me.and stop making my mum's life and my life difficult.
and stop fucking compare, she retake her o, you guys give her encouragement, i retake my o, you guys just keep on demoralising me. selfish people. that's what adult does,i finally understand.she's human, im a human too. why are we different? just because i'm prettier? or getting a bf at such a young age? your daughter is also having a bf at a young age, dummy.

definition of adult= selfish freak, look down on people, demoralise people.

i hate you people. and hey 1 more thing, we will NEVER EVER ask your daughter to learn exotic dance with us, SHE IS THE ONE who wanna learn, possible i also wont EVER ask her out. I WILL NEVER TEACH YOUR DAUGHTER BAD THINGS,and dont forget your daughter is older then me.so ridiculous. your daughter is human , other people daughter are just shit right? fucker

2008-04-05T22:03:00.000-07:00

they look alike-.-

he always buy so much food for me, this is only breakfast,always eat so much,later become too fat how?

no double chocolate, then chocolate oreo -.-

2008-04-05T21:05:00.001-07:00

白色的风筝安静的纯真真实的感觉梦境般遥远甜甜的海水复杂的眼泪看你傻笑着握住我的手梦希望没有尽头我们走到这就好因为我不想太快走完这幸福很可惜没有祝福梦希望没有祝福但爱你并不孤独不会再让你哭我陪你走到最后能不能不要回头你紧紧地抱住我说你不需要承诺你说我若一个人会比较自由我不懂你说什么反正不会松手我陪你走到最后能不能别想太多会不会手牵着手晚一点才到尽头你说不该再相见只为了瞬间谢谢你让我听见因为我在等待永远...

2008-04-05T10:38:00.000-07:00

I'm always too happy with my life,so when finally i know that things is not what i see,i will be feeling lost,numb. who will be there to guild me along? why is it always the same? why can't i learn and stop making the same mistakes that i have done?

never judge a book by its cover,it apply to human as well as a relationship.

our relationship has never been bless, neither your friends nor mine.

is only you and me,nobody gonna help if something were to went wrong,which means i could only tear silently alone.

2008-04-05T09:24:00.000-07:00

so sweet of him, on our anniversary, was walking throughout the whole bugis looking for costume to rent for my DnD, with my high heels,-,- until i meet him, he change his shoes with him,lol,

me walking with his sport shoes,while he walking on my heels, love him lotx

haha was having chocolate cookies,and we took this picture,haha

2008-04-04T05:47:00.000-07:00

you say you will be back with the labbie, and now you telling me you are very tired, tomorrow then pass me, can you please me a bit more attentive?

please, even if you are really tired can it not be this time? do you know that i just quarrel with my colleague because of you again?they ask whether the mac book is it yours?i say yes, you know what they told me? they say they will just gave me 1 mac book and leave you.hey.damn it.

do you ever know that i lost many of my good friends beause of you?they wash their hands off from me. they say you are not worthy for me, and force to break up with you.hey look,what they say sometimes sound so true, you are just playing me, i should have thrown your sad ass out.
i dint wan to believe that, same time i dint want to feel regret for making this decisious.

2008-03-30T09:12:00.000-07:00

bao bei, can send me the email or rewrite the testi ma? i really wanna see them,T_T

boy came to accompany me early in the morning, was so touched, he wore the nerdy spec look so cute,haha. tomorrow i will upload his photo.

very tired, very sleepy, only slept fpr 4 hr, then bao bei woke me up,haha, never mind, at least they were all happy moments. tonight gonna sleep on my bed, with lots and lots of happy moment in my mind,and lots and lots of love that bao bei gave me.love him lots, baby muack muack .

2008-03-28T11:10:00.000-07:00

was so surprise, darling actually remember every bits and pieces of things i told her,im so touched. im so sorry to have hurt her.but any way still love her much.they say its better to have love then lost, than not to have loved at all.

you say you wanna have time do your own things,fine, you should have just told me, hello although i appear to know alot of things, but im still not god though.but least show me some respect as your gf.
you say im sticky, fine. next time when you dont feel like finding me then just say,and not false hope.i have my own life too, just never tell you.
therefore, next time, you want have time with friends(not gay,not other gf),hobby,and other things just tell me, you know whats my mind like to do{drift away}so just tell me, so that i wont let my mind drift.

2008-03-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

fucked,having my period.
so fucking irritated,with everything, customer , shop, colleague.damn
.well
I've got nothing to say,since is already like this.

i don't know what u are busy with, promise to come fetch me also don't have, such a disappointment, for so many times you gave empty promises.damn fucked,you din't even show that you are guilty, just answer my phone like as if im bugging you,fine,i won't bug you, you find me when you need me then.anyway im not so important to you either.
LV bag, you sure you will buy? i doubt so!you think i really care about the LV bag? yes you are so fucking right,every ladies love LV bags, but you think i will be very happy getting that?
i should never have hope such things to happen,when i already expect nothing to happen,i should have face the reality, and i won't be feeling so terrible.
why was it when i always ask u anything to say, you can just tell me nothing??
you know the feeling is so fucked up.
you say you call me alot of time,3 times? just like you call every other people? 3 times is the max?
HELLO, im your gf, can you show more concern?

2008-03-26T09:05:00.000-07:00

if really comfirm go national service,dont worry boy, i will wait for you,
whether you sign on or 2 yrs, still the same, nothing will ever change right?
i dont want to be the one that you look up only when u r bored, or just wanna find someone to chat, i wanna be your girl.一辈子我要做你的女孩

and your step sis things can comfirm with me anot?

2008-03-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

i'm so tired......

baobei still tell me wanna be gay,haix. i no mood to joke still like that,
if really wanna be gay then dont waste time la,
he say with his aunt, hard to convince,can't help my mind drifted away.

damn it damn it, so tired...........

2008-03-25T08:15:00.000-07:00

hmm, wake up in the morning feeling so heavy,thank god that i doesn't have to work today.
pms pms, i hate that, cause i cannot control my thinking at all.-.-

boy went eating with his mum as cwp,-.-
and came up to my house with alot of food, especially pasta, they were so nice!yumyum
after a while , we went out.

more than half of the time outside, he is either on the phone or psp-.-
and i just sat beside quietly,although kind of bored,but at least boy was beside me .
happy though,cause we were running under the rain-.-
fall down in front of boy again, oh god,can't you treat me better?can i not have this kind of things happen to me in front of my darling?damn it

perm my hair just now, they look kind of wired, maybe I'm too use to straight hair-.-

boy recently seldom find me alr , probably he is busy, but still hard to convinced.
even if you really don't want to talk to me, at least show me ,you still remember me as your baby. say wanna send me home, in the end,saw you looking so lethargic,some more afternoon come pick me up,so ask you go back home, in the end , don't know what happen to you, sound so energetic some more,should have ask you to send me home first.

boy you promise to stay by my side forever,is what you say,and i gonna blog here,
so that you can remember,haha.

2008-03-25T08:13:00.000-07:00

hey hey, that's how boy looks like when he is young,hahaa, look so naughty=p

2008-03-24T08:13:00.000-07:00

working in sq 2 today, was slacking the whole day, no people-.-
my friend suppose to come find me today ,also never some-.-
boy say wanna fetch me home also don't have-.-
quarrel with people again-.-
almost cry-.-
bad day-.-

不是说好今天要送我回家的吗？
不是说好一个礼拜送我回家一次吗？
为什么现在半次都没有？

2008-03-22T06:45:00.000-07:00

fuck la, why every day must quarrel with ppl, so fucking tired,
i alr tried not to think about the problem,why are they still stiring up?are they the only one that is feeling upset,give up and everything? i'm lost, much more lost then them, but there they left me alone,fuck,

just call boy,hoping mood will be better, but he f keep telling me he busy,he busy. i just hope to tallk to him, but ...

2008-03-22T05:48:00.000-07:00

give boy a surprise today,haha,his reaction was sooo funny.haha

haix, dont know what zr tryin to hint me,haixxxx
he seems to know lot of my thing.

dont feel like working any more,lack of the motivation.

2008-03-21T08:45:00.000-07:00

haix, i whats wrong with me today? quarrel with my aunt early in the morning, quarrel with my brother,nearly quarrel with my cousin, and now, i think quarrling with boy, damn it,

i only hope he could accompany me awhile more,还是被人家说重。damn it.
and now then i know can use a relationship to threaten the other partner to just play the game,i mean can ask properly right?dont have to threaten, is that the relationship are worthless?can take out and threaten so easily.even if you are kidding, but your words hurt inside.

在狂欢时寂寞,从绝望里复活,才明白爱会随时间逐渐成熟

damn, im so fucking tired!!!

2008-03-19T22:03:00.000-07:00

why am i feeling lost?
what is happening to me? why can't i stop thinking?
am i thinking too much?but you are not there, when i need you. fuck what am i thinking again?
i wanna hear you say i love you. but you dont know.i can only rely on the photo. ni ke yi ai wo hen jiu ma?

2008-03-19T09:54:00.000-07:00

candid shot

candid shot

2008-03-19T09:28:00.000-07:00

my first plate of meat from boy, he fried de.hehex,sweet leh

mesy table

that is so sweet of him, making a heart shape using fried egg, so touched neh

so cute

my heart to you

my heart to you

my heart to you

they look alike?haha,was really very touched when seeing that, i really like that alot when i first saw it in mini toon, but cant afford to spend any money le, so cant buy . never thought that when i went toilet, he actually run down to buy it for me, really very surprise and very touched. muackx boy, i really never thought you wil buy, thanks alot.although you always compare me, everything,haha

2008-03-19T08:36:00.000-07:00

our trip dere:)

on the tram to our destination, muaack muack

he say he wil never let never let me shed another tear. i love him

sun too big, cannot open the eyes,or eyes too small?haha

our destination(sun too big,eye too small=p) )

sun bigger, eye smaller,haha

sun taning,haha, showing ugly faces.haha

don't cry,darling

half naked acting cute,haha.jkjk

boy birdie,walk away,haha

beautiful sky

way back lo

same expression.lol

beautiful sight

2008-03-17T09:09:00.000-07:00

as long as you one day by 1 for me, i will keep it:)
second double choclate from boy, so sweet of him, chocolate alr very sweet,come from boy bottom of the heart become sweeter,haha.
sorry wor, cause your phone to drop,dont angry le k? if i dont care abt you, i wont bothered to go back. thanks lotx yuan choon kiat

2008-03-16T08:45:00.000-07:00

my first double chocolate from boy^-^ so sweet,yum yum
boy , i want more in the future k? hehex

zi lian,wahaha

so touched , so surprise

2008-03-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

this song is so nice,

说爱我，在我的耳边对我说。：）

farah, i know you dont understand chinese,so i find the translation for you,haha,

boy you serious about the pet ma?haha, come to think of it, reali hopt to have 1:)

2008-03-16T08:40:00.000-07:00

我的眼睛并不向往另一片天空
禁止进入爱情是我说的
谁也听不见这种孤单真可怜
多爱一次就多些寂寞
你为什么还是不懂我要的自由
一句话就让你离我远了
别让我以为快乐最后会粉碎
人最孤单的时候绝不会掉眼泪
说爱我在我的耳边对我说
我已经真的太久忘了这种心动
爱太难了解了我们还看不懂
那一些心酸快乐有多少还很真呢
说爱我用你的手心温暖我
就算你不能证明爱我能爱多久
我知道你想躲我要的并不多
一起看天空好吗最后一分钟
一起看天空好吗最后爱我
说爱我

Translation

I said not to fall in love
Can't hear anybody, this kind of loneliness is really pitiful
Loving once more will bring more loneliness
Why do you still not understand the freedom I need?
One word made you more distant from me
Don't make me think happiness will eventually collapse
When it's a person's loneliest time tears won't fall

Say you love me, say it to my ear
It's really been so long that I've forgotten this type of palpitating
Love is too hard to understand, we still don't understand
How many of these sour delights are real?
Say you love me, use your hands to give me warmth
Even if you're unable to prove how long you can love me
I know you want to hide, I'm not asking for much
Can we look at the sky together? The last minute

2008-03-15T08:35:00.000-07:00

got to start work tml,sian.

if only i could turn back time, i have too many regrets.
if only i knew what i knew today, i wont take the risk.

I WANNA GO SENTOSA,
im craving for sentosa, i wanna sun-tan,haha
miss the sun,the sky ,haha

love exotic dance,
next week last lesson, was thinking of continuing, but afraid cant manage the time.

saw boy sleepin face today in his house,wahahaha

2008-03-15T08:28:00.000-07:00

run run, quick

jump jump

oh my god, oh my lord, what is dropping from the sky,lol

catch catch, faster catch the ball.

2008-03-14T10:05:00.000-07:00

that picture in my phone ,you cant recognise who he is?
is my ex, you know? but you everything dont wanna ask me, want tell you also wired,

hhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2008-03-14T09:49:00.000-07:00

will u stay by my side till the end?

acting cute,lol;)

this man is strictly for xueli,;p

his psp , her ds lite

holding hands

at raffles

**our ring**

look closer, apple eating the ring,haha

macbook -.- he took so much picture of it,but i only take 1,haha

An apple a day,KEEPS the doctor away,(rmb, is keep)

leggs

i wear it everyday,dint realise is actually 3 inch.

2008-03-13T10:27:00.000-07:00

sobsob bully me!!!T_T. last day still want bully me,haha, i will miss you much!nabey:)

quarreling. cause i don't wanna let her smoke.

so cold in singapore, lol.the shop nearly turn upside down.haha

roar!!!

muack muack

tall and short,wahaha

2008-03-11T21:27:00.000-07:00

im so tired,
should i continue count the time? or stop?
everythings just keep going wrong

turn to my left, i saw boy quarrel ytd, he always dont wanna tell me the truth, and his real feeling, how am i going to guess all the time? guess worng will get attitude from him, saying i think too much. i give him attitude then he say he dont need a gf that giv him att. att everyone also have ma,but i reali dont know what to do alr ma, cant i even giv some att to at least attract some of his attention from me?the attitude that i used to have,nobody can ever thnk that i can change so much, cant he see i have change so much?but why cant he tell me what he want exactly, what he say ytd hurt so bad, want both,then both also dont want , then single better.whats so wrong?dint he say i open his heart?why he is like this ?why everything i put in does not seem to be in use? why cant he open up and tell me everything he is thinking? why am i always the one that hoax him? not him the other way round? why is he so selfish?oly care about his own feeling?what about me?

went out with my friend ytd.i ask them alot of qns, how to know whether a guy reali like you or not? how to open a guy heart? etc, immediately they get the hell out of me, saying last time i everything know, what happen to me? nothing should have slip off from me, ,they cant even lie to me, what has happen to me?why do i seems to lose all the power?nobody can shout or scream or even giv me att cos i will get the hell out of them,and yet now i become so small,they cant even recognise my character. this is what my friend say about me.lol. i used to have strong goals that i will always work towards for and i never fail to reach my goals, but why am i like a lost bird that dont even dare to fly? low self esteem

turn to my right, i say his back view, i wanna hug him, but i cant, he is just few step away from me, yet i cant.

looking up, have a report to hand in to office today and have yet to finish.

lookin down , i have yet to do do somethings for my o level, damn it.

who will pity me?no one!! cos im better off dead!serve me right

2008-03-04T07:55:00.000-08:00

YUAN CHOON KI AT, IF YOU WANNA SEE MY BLOG, PLEASE TAG ME CAN OR NOT?AND YOU ALWAYS SEE MY BLOG, BUT I HAVE YET TO SEE YOURS？

but any way , today was a happy day, when out with mum to have some mac nice drink, eg, double chocolate, was so nice .OMG , just hard to forget the taste.wahaha.

boy went missing in the early part of the day, but never mind since he come pick me up after my piano lesson but that was nice of him.
went out today, was contented and blissful, know alot of stuff about boy this and that. i never knew he was so mischievous , so violent .haha, jkjk.but anyway thanks for telling me all your stuff;) boy you really look cute when you did that action lol. oh ya, he force me to put make up for him.wahaha, i was so scare it Will turn out bad, but luckily it turns out not as bad as i thought though.lol.and the picture that we took was really nice, but blur, ROAR!!!

boy want marry me?hahaha.

2008-03-04T07:52:00.000-08:00

pretty

yummy

2008-03-04T07:44:00.000-08:00

snore snore pig pig

pretty and handsome^.^

2008-03-02T07:55:00.000-08:00

smiley face

2008-03-02T07:54:00.000-08:00

messy table.lol

2008-03-02T07:53:00.000-08:00

me and bei de couple meal;)

2008-02-26T07:37:00.000-08:00

was working at square2 today, was late, and Dennis was already there.he stay there throughout the whole day, axis came too and stay quite long, letting me unable to call bei and wawa.lol

working in tie rack was so boring and cold, so me and bei conclude that tie rack is a cold palace, cold, lonely,boring.lol.

2008-02-25T08:19:00.000-08:00

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

Oooh...

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I
know you won't be there

Woah...

I'm sorry for blaming you for
everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say
goodbye when it comes to this

Woah Aai...

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Woah...

I'm sorry for blaming you for
everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I
would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for
everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you....

2008-02-25T08:00:00.002-08:00

if things never ever change, if things could just remain as it is.

lol, was working with wawa today, had alot of fun,thinking that we were going to have cup noodles for the whole day, so we bought 3 each, in the end we only ate 1-.- lol.
upon hearing the music , just feel like dancing, maybe that's addiction to exotic.lol
O ya, because of exotic , i had this huge patch of blue black on my leg.sobsob,so painful.

boy i also have my abalone with maggie mee.wahaha

2008-02-25T08:00:00.001-08:00

2008-02-25T07:56:00.000-08:00

2008-02-23T07:35:00.000-08:00

boy,
you always read my blog, why don't want tag me???
***
really hope you like the small *gift* that i give you,
i think very long then buy, so afraid that you don't like T_T.
thanks for everything you have did and bought for me anyway.
***
i really not sad or even unhappy that someone message you, just that you know the minute you have a message ,you move away, the reaction ,you understand ma?like you don't trust me leh, still say i never trust you-.-
***
boy, this time round, for the sake of me, 送上门，可以不要吗？

roar, lost my email password, damn, so fast forget!!!-.-

farah, wan ping, thanks for helping me find back some of my contact thanks lot !!!

anyway, farah, thanks for accompany me to the school that day, you really give me alot of support when i was down . really thank you alot.and now , i finally know what to do with my future!!! ger,if you need someone, don't hesitate to give me a call k ^-^.anyway the job, i did'nt really help much, just my friend ask me, then i ask you .lol

have my second dance lesson today, was so fun !!!went out with reine blah blah blah, and talk alot about blah blah blah, and conclude that people always treat different people differently ,therefore people are evil. ROAR!!!

2008-02-12T04:17:00.000-08:00

what should i do now?
care, concern and love are things that are suppose to be felt when he or she true fully treat you right, but why was it that i can't feel anything from him?
i cried when someone treat me right and yet i still let them down.
that is when you know that someone really treat you right.
then, why can't i felt anything from him?
do i really deserve a better person?
if there is a first time, there is surely a second time, will there be a second time?
will i still get back the same hurt again?
其实每一个问题在每一个人的心里早就有个答案。

i really don't know, no idea what's the next step i should be walking towards.知道错就应该懂自己下一步要怎么走。可是为什么我不知道要怎么走？我知道错的。

if you really have read my post, can you please tell me what i should do?why was it that i can't feel you love, care and concern ?it should not be this way.

i only have 2 choices.

2008-02-05T07:18:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-05T06:56:00.000-08:00

went out with boy today, get my abalone;) happy!!!

To boy:

haha,i'm gonna see what you can do,i'll be waiting.lol

2008-02-05T06:31:00.000-08:00

time passes so quickly, and it's almost Chinese new year.
1 more day to count down.

yet,still gonna work in new year eve ;(
haven yet to buy my clothes, have to rush everything tomorrow.lol

neve judge a book by it's cover!!!

2008-01-29T06:28:00.000-08:00

i never realize you are that sort,
time and time, i thought you were those "hard to find" guys.
never mind, i learn my mistake,

seeing your true color make me realize how foolish was i in the past to actually trust you.thanks for your everything.

she surely can do better then me.

**stock take**
stock take is so tiring, luckily can go home early.lol
when out with my friend after that, and we had a go time having 'leg aching'=p

2008-01-24T09:58:00.000-08:00

coffee,coffee,coffee!

gastric,gastric,gastric!

having gastric pain almost everyday!
and it's so painful.

finally having 2 days off, but have to pay a heavy price.
not going to have any off for more than 1 week, lol. can't imagine that to happen.

i don't know what happen,but everything seems so wrong.

last memories

2008-01-24T09:54:00.000-08:00