Lost In Beauty-

Sunday, 30 March 2008

bao bei, can send me the email or rewrite the testi ma? i really wanna see them,T_T

boy came to accompany me early in the morning, was so touched, he wore the nerdy spec look so cute,haha. tomorrow i will upload his photo.

very tired, very sleepy, only slept fpr 4 hr, then bao bei woke me up,haha, never mind, at least they were all happy moments. tonight gonna sleep on my bed, with lots and lots of happy moment in my mind,and lots and lots of love that bao bei gave me.love him lots, baby muack muack .

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Friday, 28 March 2008

was so surprise, darling actually remember every bits and pieces of things i told her,im so touched. im so sorry to have hurt her.but any way still love her much.they say its better to have love then lost, than not to have loved at all.

you say you wanna have time do your own things,fine, you should have just told me, hello although i appear to know alot of things, but im still not god though.but least show me some respect as your gf.
you say im sticky, fine. next time when you dont feel like finding me then just say,and not false hope.i have my own life too, just never tell you.
therefore, next time, you want have time with friends(not gay,not other gf),hobby,and other things just tell me, you know whats my mind like to do{drift away}so just tell me, so that i wont let my mind drift.

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fucked,having my period.
so fucking irritated,with everything, customer , shop, colleague.damn
.well
I've got nothing to say,since is already like this.

i don't know what u are busy with, promise to come fetch me also don't have, such a disappointment, for so many times you gave empty promises.damn fucked,you din't even show that you are guilty, just answer my phone like as if im bugging you,fine,i won't bug you, you find me when you need me then.anyway im not so important to you either.
LV bag, you sure you will buy? i doubt so!you think i really care about the LV bag? yes you are so fucking right,every ladies love LV bags, but you think i will be very happy getting that?
i should never have hope such things to happen,when i already expect nothing to happen,i should have face the reality, and i won't be feeling so terrible.
why was it when i always ask u anything to say, you can just tell me nothing??
you know the feeling is so fucked up.
you say you call me alot of time,3 times? just like you call every other people? 3 times is the max?
HELLO, im your gf, can you show more concern?

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Wednesday, 26 March 2008

if really comfirm go national service,dont worry boy, i will wait for you,
whether you sign on or 2 yrs, still the same, nothing will ever change right?
i dont want to be the one that you look up only when u r bored, or just wanna find someone to chat, i wanna be your girl.一辈子我要做你的女孩

and your step sis things can comfirm with me anot?

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i'm so tired......

baobei still tell me wanna be gay,haix. i no mood to joke still like that,
if really wanna be gay then dont waste time la,
he say with his aunt, hard to convince,can't help my mind drifted away.

damn it damn it, so tired...........

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Tuesday, 25 March 2008

hmm, wake up in the morning feeling so heavy,thank god that i doesn't have to work today.
pms pms, i hate that, cause i cannot control my thinking at all.-.-

boy went eating with his mum as cwp,-.-
and came up to my house with alot of food, especially pasta, they were so nice!yumyum
after a while , we went out.

more than half of the time outside, he is either on the phone or psp-.-
and i just sat beside quietly,although kind of bored,but at least boy was beside me .
happy though,cause we were running under the rain-.-
fall down in front of boy again, oh god,can't you treat me better?can i not have this kind of things happen to me in front of my darling?damn it

perm my hair just now, they look kind of wired, maybe I'm too use to straight hair-.-

boy recently seldom find me alr , probably he is busy, but still hard to convinced.
even if you really don't want to talk to me, at least show me ,you still remember me as your baby. say wanna send me home, in the end,saw you looking so lethargic,some more afternoon come pick me up,so ask you go back home, in the end , don't know what happen to you, sound so energetic some more,should have ask you to send me home first.

boy you promise to stay by my side forever,is what you say,and i gonna blog here,
so that you can remember,haha.

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hey hey, that's how boy looks like when he is young,hahaa, look so naughty=p

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Monday, 24 March 2008

working in sq 2 today, was slacking the whole day, no people-.-
my friend suppose to come find me today ,also never some-.-
boy say wanna fetch me home also don't have-.-
quarrel with people again-.-
almost cry-.-
bad day-.-

不是说好今天要送我回家的吗？
不是说好一个礼拜送我回家一次吗？
为什么现在半次都没有？

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Saturday, 22 March 2008

fuck la, why every day must quarrel with ppl, so fucking tired,
i alr tried not to think about the problem,why are they still stiring up?are they the only one that is feeling upset,give up and everything? i'm lost, much more lost then them, but there they left me alone,fuck,

just call boy,hoping mood will be better, but he f keep telling me he busy,he busy. i just hope to tallk to him, but ...

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give boy a surprise today,haha,his reaction was sooo funny.haha

haix, dont know what zr tryin to hint me,haixxxx
he seems to know lot of my thing.

dont feel like working any more,lack of the motivation.

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Friday, 21 March 2008

haix, i whats wrong with me today? quarrel with my aunt early in the morning, quarrel with my brother,nearly quarrel with my cousin, and now, i think quarrling with boy, damn it,

i only hope he could accompany me awhile more,还是被人家说重。damn it.
and now then i know can use a relationship to threaten the other partner to just play the game,i mean can ask properly right?dont have to threaten, is that the relationship are worthless?can take out and threaten so easily.even if you are kidding, but your words hurt inside.

在狂欢时寂寞,从绝望里复活,才明白爱会随时间逐渐成熟

damn, im so fucking tired!!!

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Wednesday, 19 March 2008

why am i feeling lost?
what is happening to me? why can't i stop thinking?
am i thinking too much?but you are not there, when i need you. fuck what am i thinking again?
i wanna hear you say i love you. but you dont know.i can only rely on the photo. ni ke yi ai wo hen jiu ma?

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candid shot

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my first plate of meat from boy, he fried de.hehex,sweet leh

mesy table

that is so sweet of him, making a heart shape using fried egg, so touched neh

so cute

my heart to you

they look alike?haha,was really very touched when seeing that, i really like that alot when i first saw it in mini toon, but cant afford to spend any money le, so cant buy . never thought that when i went toilet, he actually run down to buy it for me, really very surprise and very touched. muackx boy, i really never thought you wil buy, thanks alot.although you always compare me, everything,haha

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our trip dere:)

on the tram to our destination, muaack muack

he say he wil never let never let me shed another tear. i love him

sun too big, cannot open the eyes,or eyes too small?haha

our destination(sun too big,eye too small=p) )

sun bigger, eye smaller,haha

sun taning,haha, showing ugly faces.haha

don't cry,darling

half naked acting cute,haha.jkjk

boy birdie,walk away,haha

beautiful sky

way back lo

same expression.lol

beautiful sight

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Monday, 17 March 2008

as long as you one day by 1 for me, i will keep it:)
second double choclate from boy, so sweet of him, chocolate alr very sweet,come from boy bottom of the heart become sweeter,haha.
sorry wor, cause your phone to drop,dont angry le k? if i dont care abt you, i wont bothered to go back. thanks lotx yuan choon kiat

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Sunday, 16 March 2008

my first double chocolate from boy^-^ so sweet,yum yum
boy , i want more in the future k? hehex

zi lian,wahaha

so touched , so surprise

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this song is so nice,

说爱我，在我的耳边对我说。：）

farah, i know you dont understand chinese,so i find the translation for you,haha,

boy you serious about the pet ma?haha, come to think of it, reali hopt to have 1:)

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我的眼睛并不向往另一片天空
禁止进入爱情是我说的
谁也听不见这种孤单真可怜
多爱一次就多些寂寞
你为什么还是不懂我要的自由
一句话就让你离我远了
别让我以为快乐最后会粉碎
人最孤单的时候绝不会掉眼泪
说爱我在我的耳边对我说
我已经真的太久忘了这种心动
爱太难了解了我们还看不懂
那一些心酸快乐有多少还很真呢
说爱我用你的手心温暖我
就算你不能证明爱我能爱多久
我知道你想躲我要的并不多
一起看天空好吗最后一分钟
一起看天空好吗最后爱我
说爱我

Translation

I said not to fall in love
Can't hear anybody, this kind of loneliness is really pitiful
Loving once more will bring more loneliness
Why do you still not understand the freedom I need?
One word made you more distant from me
Don't make me think happiness will eventually collapse
When it's a person's loneliest time tears won't fall

Say you love me, say it to my ear
It's really been so long that I've forgotten this type of palpitating
Love is too hard to understand, we still don't understand
How many of these sour delights are real?
Say you love me, use your hands to give me warmth
Even if you're unable to prove how long you can love me
I know you want to hide, I'm not asking for much
Can we look at the sky together? The last minute

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Saturday, 15 March 2008

got to start work tml,sian.

if only i could turn back time, i have too many regrets.
if only i knew what i knew today, i wont take the risk.

I WANNA GO SENTOSA,
im craving for sentosa, i wanna sun-tan,haha
miss the sun,the sky ,haha

love exotic dance,
next week last lesson, was thinking of continuing, but afraid cant manage the time.

saw boy sleepin face today in his house,wahahaha

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run run, quick

jump jump

oh my god, oh my lord, what is dropping from the sky,lol

catch catch, faster catch the ball.

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Friday, 14 March 2008

that picture in my phone ,you cant recognise who he is?
is my ex, you know? but you everything dont wanna ask me, want tell you also wired,

hhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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